Sunday, July 24, 2005

what is there?

Imagine....that i can look at the world through a psychedelic perspective. what would it be like? imagine that i could do it without the assistance of marijuana, or any external tool, but just through my own eyes. or would it just be a futile and foolish experience?

imagine that what i see....is only a glimmer of what lies underneath and beyond. imagine that there are many more layers to uncover. sometimes, i feel helpless, not really knowing how or where to look. other times, i feel that i am seeing things that would want me stay in that moment indefinitely, like the feeling of being in love.

i was reminded yesterday morning of the reality of the cross. what does it really mean to me now and in the future ? how will my heart respond to it at this current stage? if there is a mirror that could reflect the realities in my heart, would i really want to face it? would i be contented to see what is in there or would i draw back with disappointment and even pain? i am not certain. maybe i will know soon, or later.

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